Wow! Over a year this time....
Its been over a year since my last post, and well, I don't know that much has changed. I have moved twice since last I was here, but I'm still in Gotebo. Go figure. I always get reminiscent when I get on here. I guess its because I just want to talk about all the cool things that I have done. I have pulled my first kids tooth. Seen both of my kids get into the grades with numbers attached to them. Gotten a raise. Started more projects than I can count. Spent millions in the name of Caddo Electric. And overall had a wonderful time with the awesome family God has given me.
Some things I have noticed: Facebook is everywhere, Twitter is crack to most people, Oklahoma doesn't change much, the overall look of the US does though, but my little part of it stays constant. I regret nothing, but am curious of what might have been. I wouldn't change anything if I could go back and do it again, but if I have the wisdom and knowledge from now then, it wouldn't help but be changed. Thoughts and feelings. Understanding and information. I don't think I could last back there now though. This " " great thing they call the internet and all its information overload would be really hard to live without. I guess its like someone who grew up in the earlier part of last century not having a telephone and losing it again. A lot of people wouldn't know what to do. I'm too connected. Its not like I interact a whole lot. I just like knowing. I'm a digital peeping Tom. I like to see into everyone else's lives. Atleast what they will show of it.
I'm getting old. I turned 30 just a few months ago, and I'm not really sure how to feel about that. I'm overweight (not obese though), out of shape, and reflectful. I don't like the first two, but I could do soemthing about them if I wanted. The last one...... just seems to be my nature. I don't want to think this much about the past, but it comes to mind very often. I do want to be a kid again. It was so simple being a kid. No bills, no worries about work, nothing to hold you in spot. After school till I was 16 I'd hop on my bike and disappear for hours. No one worried that I was gone, and nothing to worry about back at the house. Nanny would have supper ready, and mom would be there to get me shortly after we ate. If my tires were flat, Pappa would help me fix them. I could always find at least 3 other people to ride bikes with, if I wanted, but more often than not, I would just hop on my bike and ride. Not a care in the world. I miss that. I hate being an adult. Really, really hate being an adult. Sure it has its benefits; I can drive, drink, do what I want when I want, but its a different type of freedom from when I was a kid. We go out to my in-laws and they have something like 20 acres to run around on, and I love seeing the kids just go and explore out there. And adventure over every hill, and around every tree. The old days.
But here I am. The adventure that is life before me. I don't know what will come next. I don't know how long I will be on this earth even. I can't plan that far ahead, but thats not what life is about. Life doesn't conform to plans. It doesn't check with my itinerary to see whats next. Its chaos. Always moving and flowing, this way and that. And I can't imagine it being any other way.
Some things I have noticed: Facebook is everywhere, Twitter is crack to most people, Oklahoma doesn't change much, the overall look of the US does though, but my little part of it stays constant. I regret nothing, but am curious of what might have been. I wouldn't change anything if I could go back and do it again, but if I have the wisdom and knowledge from now then, it wouldn't help but be changed. Thoughts and feelings. Understanding and information. I don't think I could last back there now though. This " " great thing they call the internet and all its information overload would be really hard to live without. I guess its like someone who grew up in the earlier part of last century not having a telephone and losing it again. A lot of people wouldn't know what to do. I'm too connected. Its not like I interact a whole lot. I just like knowing. I'm a digital peeping Tom. I like to see into everyone else's lives. Atleast what they will show of it.
I'm getting old. I turned 30 just a few months ago, and I'm not really sure how to feel about that. I'm overweight (not obese though), out of shape, and reflectful. I don't like the first two, but I could do soemthing about them if I wanted. The last one...... just seems to be my nature. I don't want to think this much about the past, but it comes to mind very often. I do want to be a kid again. It was so simple being a kid. No bills, no worries about work, nothing to hold you in spot. After school till I was 16 I'd hop on my bike and disappear for hours. No one worried that I was gone, and nothing to worry about back at the house. Nanny would have supper ready, and mom would be there to get me shortly after we ate. If my tires were flat, Pappa would help me fix them. I could always find at least 3 other people to ride bikes with, if I wanted, but more often than not, I would just hop on my bike and ride. Not a care in the world. I miss that. I hate being an adult. Really, really hate being an adult. Sure it has its benefits; I can drive, drink, do what I want when I want, but its a different type of freedom from when I was a kid. We go out to my in-laws and they have something like 20 acres to run around on, and I love seeing the kids just go and explore out there. And adventure over every hill, and around every tree. The old days.
But here I am. The adventure that is life before me. I don't know what will come next. I don't know how long I will be on this earth even. I can't plan that far ahead, but thats not what life is about. Life doesn't conform to plans. It doesn't check with my itinerary to see whats next. Its chaos. Always moving and flowing, this way and that. And I can't imagine it being any other way.
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